In my next life...

I will write Broadway shows.

"Advice to Myself" by Louise Erdrich

Leave the dishes.
Let the celery rot in the bottom drawer of the refrigerator
and an earthen scum harden on the kitchen floor.
Leave the black crumbs in the bottom of the toaster.
Throw the cracked bowl out and don't patch the cup.
Don't patch anything. Don't mend. Buy safety pins.
Don't even sew on a button.
Let the wind have its way, then the earth
that invades as dust and then the dead
foaming up in gray rolls underneath the couch.
Talk to them. Tell them they are welcome.
Don't keep all the pieces of the puzzles
or the doll's tiny shoes in pairs, don't worry
who uses whose toothbrush or if anything
matches, at all.
Except one word to another. Or a thought.
Pursue the authentic-decide first
what is authentic,
then go after it with all your heart.
Your heart, that place
you don't even think of cleaning out.
That closet stuffed with savage mementos.
Don't sort the paper clips from screws from saved baby teeth
or worry if we're all eating cereal for dinner
again. Don't answer the telephone, ever,
or weep over anything at all that breaks.
Pink molds will grow within those sealed cartons
in the refrigerator. Accept new forms of life
and talk to the dead
who drift in though the screened windows, who collect
patiently on the tops of food jars and books.
Recycle the mail, don't read it, don't read anything
except what destroys
the insulation between yourself and your experience
or what pulls down or what strikes at or what shatters
this ruse you call necessity.

the eyes of a child look through me - by blanca

With this Saturn in Leo affecting humanity, my perpetually serious attitude has changed quite a bit.

Saturn said: "You either lighten up or else..."

Always eager for something new, I've been following this 'command' and I must say... it works. I am unleashing the overwhelming imagination of my childhood. Sure, sometimes it gets me in trouble, but that is so much more rewarding than a dry life of hard cold reality.

The child is making her appearance everywhere: from my home decoration, my dance work, the way I interact with friends and loved ones, my taste for circus arts... The most amazing thing I'm feeling is this fearlessness I never experienced before. Who knew children are so fearless... I always looked down at them... I was never one myself!


Here's a recent inspiration of mine ~

dreaming, imperfect dreaming
caught in a life repeating
always just out of grasp
sacred visions of a light shared beyond

dreaming, the days pass through me
I've spent a lifetime scheming
all I had hoped to be
whispers lazy in a dream far away

witness, I am a witness
to the darkness and to the fire

gazing up at a single star
I dream of wings to take me higher

dreams, imperfect dreaming
touching just as they're leaving
always just out of grasp
sacred visions of a light shared beyond

looking up at a single star
I need your wings to take me higher

I'm dreaming
the world is dreaming
I heard the sound of millions breathing
cast into the night
we wait for the dark to turn to light

the eyes of a child look through me
they beg me to tell the story
of all that we can be
when we dare to live out our dreams

[Benoit Jutras]

collex archetypes

we have been studying the 22 major arcana of the tarot as a weekly process to work through our show "discordia"'s creation. we began the works for "discordia" on winter solstice '06, and the show falls on the weekend of summer solstice. at the beginning of our archetype study we gathered together the cards which represent each of us according to numerology and astrology (some of us have the same, or even two or three!). This (the photo) was the official start of our conscious journey into "discordia."